Some of you may be wondering why I wrote HARRY IN THE LOOKING GLASS. One word sums up the first reason. That word is INDIFFERENCE. As a police officer, I had become indifferent to the death, pain and suffering of others. Carl's death brought it home to me and I realised something was wrong. My work as a cop and binge drinking had hardened and de-humanised me to the point of callousness. I didn't care any more. I couldn't register emotion. I was losing my self respect.My head was screwed up with guilt and self-pity. Nobody should be this way.I decided to analyse why I had reached this point. It gave me the idea to write 'Harry' as a cathartic way to explore the psychology of this.I think I'm a better person for it.
Another lighter reason was to satisfy the demands of my alter ego and mid life crisis. Nothing like restoring the romance and excitement of youth even if it is only in the mind. Grass is always greener on the other side until sanity is restored.
Yet another was because I could. Simple as that.
Very interesting. I found myself once in A&E in the early hours of the morning listening to somebody (I'm a psychiatrist) and realised that I hadn't heard anything he was telling me. And it made not a lot of difference to me...You can get dehumanised when the job expects you to put up with certain things....
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